23 Years Young

This week will be a pretty hectic week for me school has already kicked off so I’m really trying to transition my summer mode into school season. On top of that Montreal Fashion Week begins this week, well actually today. Getting to interact and meet new people is always a plus in my books. Montreal Fashion Week Festivities always fulfill my needs of inspiration whether it’s positive vibes or even negative at time, I can always take something from it and add to my content. And finally to top it all off my birthday is tomorrow.

Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty. Anyone who keeps learning stays young. The greatest thing in life is to keep your mind young.

Outfit.
Jacket - Club Monaco
Camo Button Up - Tommy Hilfiger
Pants - American Apparel
Shoes - Palladium

It will be 23 years that I have walked this earth, and at this moment I feel like it’s only been 2. Learning and growing more everyday has really helped me throughout time to really try and keep my thoughts fresh and my body young. Many say 23 is slowly the beginning of the end. The end being a career, marriage, kids, etc. I hear it so often that at time I believe it, and question myself “What the hell am i doing”. Friends I have grown up with have already gotten married or have had children. And I’m just sitting here blogging day in and day out. Trying to chase something, but not even sure of what exactly it is that I’m chasing.

That’s when doubt and insecurity kicks in, I’m human just as much as anyone else so of course these emotions will occur from time to time. There are nights where I would sit here frustrated with how things are going and just want to quit with everything. It all seems pointless, it all seems meaning less. I've never been good with words so explaining my ambition to others just seems like pure foolishness and not reality. They don't seem to understand that I feel I can shape and build my own reality. Not luck, not fluke, not faith but I.

 I than get a email, tweet, a text, or have a normal conversation with someone who feels my work has somewhat moved them in a way. To help them push and pursue whatever it is they want in life. And that is what really puts everything in perspective for me. It's what makes everything worth while the sleepless nights, hours of editing, the interviews. At the end of it all just to have my work effect someone in such a way to give them that extra push is all that matters.

To be honest, i dont even know what im chasing. But this is the best run of my life.